Back to school tommorrow. It's been one of the best years ever and yet I have never cried so much. I have become everything that I hoped to be and done all that I hoped to an yet... I can't rationalise any of it. Of being so happy, and then so depressed. Days when I just can't get out of bed, days when I can't sleep in excitement, days when I can't sleep in despair. And these past to weeks have been a reprise from it all and I have been able to pull myself together after slowly unravelling, falling apart last term. I suppose the one coming will be just a test of endurance, seeing if the foundations of sanity which I have so painstakingly laid over these few weeks will hold. I'll have to wait and see.